To celebrate on the outside when your heart is crying on the inside.
Being a strong advocate of positive thinking, I have a huge poster on failure on one of my room's walls. It decodes the meaning of failure in a positive sense. I read it again yesterday for the nth time and I think, my friendship with her was a failure, a failure on my part as much as on her part. A disastrous failure I guess. Perhaps it is not her but my failure tht bothers me a lot. But It does.
Even today morning I waked up with nightmares of what happened twelve months ago.
So even as try to solve the puzzle of my emotions two things I am very clear about.
Infact 3 now.
1) I am happy for her and him for the year they complete.
2) I am not sad. Et all. Not even in this depressing cold weather.
3) I am still not hundred percent sure of this but I think I am jealous of the world. Teeny Weeny Bit.
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